It Always Works Out In The End

Posted on Nov 28 2016 - 10:22pm by Markell

It’s been awhile since I just wrote. Most of my posts have a purpose. A list or a recipe or something. But what I really miss is just writing. Just talking about life and all it’s ups and downs. 

It’s so easy to forget that sharing REAL life is so important. Sharing what goes on in the day to day is what I think helps me connect to you, and you to me. It’s what proves that I’m real, and it’s what (I hope) gives you strength to get through your day. 

Three truths about me this week: 

  • I didn’t work out at all last week. Blame it on Thanksgiving or my husband being home or whatever. But it didn’t happen.
  • I didn’t sleep last night. My croupy two year old is currently laying next to me and I doubt I’ll sleep much tonight. Because of that, I was a real ***** to my kids today. They watched TV or played on their tablets all. day. long. And you know what? That happens some days. It just does. That’s life. It’s not always perfect, and it’s not supposed to be. 
  • hmmm number three. I have no food in the house. none. Well I have like four eggs, and some left over Turkey from last week. And malt o meal. So malt o meal for breakfast it is! 

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Me and my croupy baby

I’ve been stressed about money. About life. About what’s happening next. I’ve been trying to make things work on MY time table, and I’ve been neglecting to ask God what He wants. Because HE knows what’s next. He knows where the next meal is coming from <most likely the bank of mom right now.> And He knows. He just knows. And because He knows, and because He loves me, I know that I don’t have to worry. I mean, I forget that, all the freaking time, but I DO know that. 

We finally had some break through moments in the finance department. Our only income right now is my online income, and I’m doing a few different things to make ends meet. Most months I’m able to ALMOST make it. I’m grateful to have parents who are helping us at the moment, but I’m trying hard to be able to increase our income so we don’t have to rely on their help. Andre’s classes are tough right now, but hopefully next semester he’ll be able to work a bit as well. 

BUT. Things happened today that make me really feel like things are looking up. Like everything is going to be okay. 

I heard once that if something is right when you pray about it, it’s still right, even when it gets hard. We prayed about being here, in Colorado, and we knew it was right. We are supposed to be here. And I know that the Lord will and is taking care of us. 

I know I’m rambling. That’s because I’m running on zero sleep and it’s 11 pm. But I needed to write down theses words. I needed you to hear them. 

So thanks. Thanks for listening. 

You’re the best. Thanks for listening to my rambles. 

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  1. Chloe December 5, 2016 at 9:59 pm - Reply

    Thank you for being honest, it is nice to know other mums are having tough days as well x

    • amouseinmykitchen December 6, 2016 at 8:07 pm - Reply

      Some days are just like that! Hang in there.

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